need money thank you

Hello everyone,

I have severe OCD, scared gems and strangers, it is difficult for me to go out on the street and go to work, but I have to challenge myself to go to things like food shopping, working, it because of my family. I have Breast cancer just like my mother, I value old fashion, I believe life is more than just play cell phone apps all day long, I am toward 50 years old I don’t use any cellphone media app Facebook TikTok..etc. I rather believe real phone calls, real smile face to face better than sending emojis, I just want to take care my mother after she happily peacefully pass away in the future I can finish my own life soon after that, just really really tired to live. working hard ,tight on Pennie’s, go grocery shopping see those people use food stamp card buying all those name brand food full of shopping cart, I just have to select sales and store brand items, I working hard but now I might have to live in the car, between paying car payment, insurance raised up again, sending money to old mother and paying apartment, I plan to live in the car any time soon can not afford home anymore.

I have been in this country for over 20 years never ever asked any help from any kind of welfare from gov, never hand out,always contribute to the society,

but this time, I just lost my job because discrimination to me and retaliation to me at work, I am looking for jobs all the time, but it is hard.

I am only child,my father left me and my mother when I was little , we have not hear from since,

my mother lives alone in a small old apartment that needs a lot repair like leaking roof when is rain, mold on the roof and walls, mouse problems since I am not there to help old mum, she hard to fix bad lights or plumbing problems in China, she is 75 years old live alone by herself has very bad knees that bone all deformed , really need surgery to fix it, but lacking the money, we can not do it, she is in huge pain everyday, very hard to walk, but she has to go get food or throw trash herself, using those bad legs up and down stairs there is no elevator.

surgery needed A lot money, after surgery recovery needs pay for health care, I am not in home with her, it is very hard, I need money to go home, without income, there is no money to airline or living cost to taking care myself and my mother.

I am also starving oil painting artist, love art very much, but can not make living with it .

this is first time to ask help from public, thank you everyone from my bottom of heart